Stake Conference

Our Sabbath day this past week was interesting. I am always super excited for Stake Conference, not only to hear uplifting talks but to see all of my friends from my old wards like Tallmadge, Wadsworth and the Easthill branch. I just love my friends and I love seeing them all gathered in a great building that I am so thankful we have to meet in and worship in the gospel. On our normal Sundays it is very difficult to make it through our regular sacrament meeting for an hour with our 5 kiddo's, but what makes it more difficult is my adorable Mr. Wade who is like taking care of 2 kids literally. The more we watch him day to day and the more dr's appointments we go to, we are really thinking he has some form of autism which makes my days and nights very exhausting, but even though it is hard I wouldnt have it any other way, I am so thankful for him in our family and I think the lord knew that I needed him! I was leery about taking all the kids to Stake conference, but I figured we would try it, I got up way early and got Delaney, Natilie and Jamie J. (who spent the night) ready and took them with me to get to the church by 8:30 so I could get a padded bench so we could block Wade in and hopefully last the whole meeting. We got there by 8:20am got a bench and just waited for Josh to show up with Daniel, Justin, Wade and Jesse J. (who spent the night) I was so happy to see them come in the door and we made it for about the first 15 minutes and then lost all control. Delaney was fussing and crying because she was tired but wouldn't fall to sleep, so I stood up to the side and was rocking her and then Wade followed and threw a loud fit, so I carried them both out one on each hip, got in the hall and Wade really lost it then while I was trying to carry both kids I had two men stop and ask me if I needed help, finally I sent a friends husband from our ward in to get my husband to come out, needless to say we tried for about the next 30 mins to make it but it was impossible, so Josh finally decided to just take the 2 young boys home. I felt bad for all those who were sitting around us, but hey at least we tried, right...and at least I got to hear the last 2 talks and see all of my dear friends. Everyone has told me that this is the hardest stage to deal with when having a kid who might have autism and it wont get better until they are like 10, boy we gotta long way to go if this is what it is, but for now we do all we can do to help our little man, and regardless of how difficult it is and the last 20 months of sleepless nights, that little man melts my heart with each smile even if it is not directed at my face he smiles and giggles so much and I am so thankful for those who still try to reach out to him and treat him like they would anyone elses kid, that means alot to me, even though he has different needs and difficulties in life he is still a heaven sent special little boy! I am so grateful this holiday season for my beautiful children, a husband who loves me even with my faults, my family and amazing friends and the gospel of jesus christ! I am truly blessed!